I quit smoking 6 weeks ago today.
It truly pains me to mention the benefits I've noticed since my last puff...only because I am still mourning the loss of my old friend. But here goes anyways...
I have loads more energy. I can walk up a flight of stairs and not get winded. So, you know, that's nice. I'm not going to be running a marathon anytime soon, but I can enjoy a walk with Molly without wanting to die. I am not as tired. When I smoked, I yawned all the time and generally was just lethargic. Since I've quit I don't need afternoon naps. Go figure! My skin is glowing. Glowing! I don't look a pale shade of grey anymore. My skin is pink and rosy and my troublesome acne is GONE. I've always wondered why I still get zits in my thirties. Huh, now I know!
And then there's the obvious...I have more money, not spending $10.00 every two days on a pack of cigs. And I don't smell like stale smoke. My hands don't smell, my hair doesn't smell and my clothes don't smell. I'm not I'm not ruled by the iron cigarette, the craving that is.
This time round, I haven't replaced my cravings for a cigarette with chocolate bars and candy and pastries and chocolate and more chocolate. Instead I eat a carrot, or a handful of nuts or some dried fruit. So....I haven't gained any weight this time around. This is absolutely fabulous - because I still have to lose the 15lbs I gained the last time I quit.
And yet, every single time I see someone smoke I think, "Oh, they're soooooo lucky!" When I walk by someone smoking, I breathe in extra deep and fondly remember my old friend. I haven't gotten to the point yet where I loathe cigarettes. This is the point to which every non-smoking smoker must reach. I know that in order for me to remain a non-smoker I have to learn to hate everything about them...the smell, the hold it has on your life, the way it robs your bank account every two days, the obvious health ramifications. I'm not quite there yet. Of course, I realize the benefits of smoking, and I absolutely appreciate them. I still really just miss my friend.